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root in poor income, ie. salary from QRRS around ¥2000 since March, 2016, my credit crisis worsened and issuer bank warned of possible takeover my salary card. even its too mean to cover my startup activities, it does cover most of my living expense including my son's. so I now confronted with starving and survival on my bare hands. my first response is to find a part time job to cover bank commision, near ¥1000 monthly. but I really loathed to put myself in my 50s into labor market. I'm a casual man and with strong religion preference, which likely put me in incompatible with currency of job market. and I enjoy bounding with my vocation, site building and China democracy promotion. I love communicative web online. after nearly 2 weeks reckon of relocation, and after my accounting online at buxfer.com reminds me my debt actually under ¥80,000, just above 60,000, my sinking heart reignites with confidence to survive credit crisis with careful handling current situation without extra distractions.

I don't need flee nor sacrifice of second job to retain my vocation and hobby which defines me out. I will live with my vested kingdom of China and its washed resources by CCP's over-exploit in recent decades. I bare hardness common Chinese bounded to after their sins following delusive communism. that's my choice upon my draining finance, as well as over stalemate PRC in eve of civil war it brought to worldwide beyond its capacity of manipulation.

God, dad, grant me legitimacy in my adoption on deficit. bring me peace and prosperous on the seashore I collecting colorful dreams and scenes. let's enjoy life as we did, and brighter future under the oath and Heaven.

woz, dearest son's birthday comes in May. here he stood top a heap in a previous dusk.


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21 April 2021

a determined mind. 盲言之芒岩 眸子的星芒浮于薄霭 厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼 under God's shine after i broke heart for a girl collegian, devoted to reclaim my vested kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory. 你在清贫中呆的太久了 你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星 http://www.be21zh.org http://blog.benzrad.us http://bbs.zhuson.com http://co.faezrland.co http://m.zhone.mobi https://agarten.in http://t.dabbog.com http://zho.io
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